What day is it? I think it’s day 5 going on 6?
I’m going to be honest… I fucking HATE these drains. My chest muscles are in a constant state of spasm, I can’t lift my arms past 90 degrees, I’m still weak as hell, and easily EXHAUSTED… but these drains? They can all bite me. One of the left side is right on top of a rib bone, another in my right side? Damn near in my armpit. I suppose the other two (4 in total) aren’t too terrible. I still hate them. SO MUCH.
I’m trying to move when I can… and do what I can on my own. I’m still having a hard time dealing with how much help I still need. I don’t like it at all. I have to constantly remind myself of the bigger picture that could have been, and what will soon be instead.
I chose this. I have to find my strength in that…
23July2017