One year ago today… I made a huge decision with my body. Even bigger than having my ovaries removed… I went through with my choice to have a full prophylactic mastectomy. In 2016, after finding a lump in my left breast (thankfully it turned out to be benign)…. and at…
I’ll try to explain this as best as I can… Since the switch from expanders to implants, I’ve kind of always felt the implants. By that I mean I’ve always felt something *foreign* with every moment that involves those muscles. Wearing bralettes or sports bras made me more aware of…
and it sucks. I had a fat grafting procedure, to kind of fill out some weird spots on the fake boobs. I was ok with the idea of doing local anesthesia, but apparently people who suffer from chronic pain tend to fidget more during that? So he decided to go…
Maybe that extra 20lbs I put on last year might work out in my favor after all. I had a follow up with my plastic surgeon. So, after the mastectomy and reconstruction.. my Newbs actually don’t look too bad. But there is a spot on the left one that bothers…
The girls are settling in nicely in my opinion. I have an appt next month with the plastic surgeon to see if we should do any fat grafting around the area. I have a feeling we might end up going that route, and I would LOVE for them to take…
Something annoying that I’m still dealing with, anytime I step outside into the frozen tundra that is my city… my chest muscles instantly tighten. I’m not sure how normal that is… but that is what’s goin on lately. It’s not fun. Although, I’m probably doing things that I shouldn’t be…
It’s been a month since the switch, and I’m slowly trying to ease into things. I still can’t do anything major (unless I want muscle spasms) but I’m getting there. Basic housework doesn’t completely exhaust me, so there is that. (Shout out to my oldest teenager, who has been a…
this year has shown me how strong I can be when I have to be. But it wasn’t (and still isn’t) easy. A part of me wants desperately for people to understand how EXHAUSTING this has been (emotionally, mentally, physically). But I know that unless you personally go through this?…
Just the dreaded *OMG WILL IT HURRY UP AND GET HERE SO I CAN BE DONE WITH ALL OF THIS* feeling. It’s eating me.
In one week, I will finally get these expanders replaced with implants. I am SO CLOSE (so of course it feels so far away). I don’t even know how to explain how tough this year has been… the surgeries, the hormone changes, trying to find myself again while still making…