ugh.
I know I asked for this. But I am definitely NOT enjoying it.
Honestly, I thought I read enough about menopause to get a general understanding for what I was in for. Maybe I did … I don’t think any woman is wholly prepared for any of it though.
The hot flashes are less frequent. Which has been nice. I have experienced this thing where my palms and the soles of my feet itch SO BAD, and BURN. I hope that never happens again, but I won’t hold my breath.
I feel strange in my own body. Not BAD. Just different. And I’m not sure how I feel about that. Some days, I’m trying to just figure out my emotions… and this fatigue is not helping. I have little energy these days.
In my head, all I’m doing is complaining about all of these shit-tastic things… and it’s driving me a little cray. But apparently my whining really is all in my head. The husband tells me I rarely complain and haven’t gotten emotional. (huh?) I think after being married for as long as we have, he’s probably obligated to say that to my face though… 😛
Still on my mind is wanting so bad to just hurry up and get this mastectomy crap done and over, and feeling mildly irritated (self imposed) that I’m waiting until the summer to have it done. (School, husband having enough vacation time, etc). I can’t wait to get this cancer risk crap to almost nothing…
So that’s my brain right now.
If this gene mutation had a face? I would punch it.