I’ll try to explain this as best as I can…
Since the switch from expanders to implants, I’ve kind of always felt the implants. By that I mean I’ve always felt something *foreign* with every moment that involves those muscles. Wearing bralettes or sports bras made me more aware of that feeling. (Like, they are trying to keep something strapped to my body).
I’ve noticed the last week, that…. my upper body almost feels like my own again. I don’t know if that makes sense. But I’m doing things around the house, outside, in general… and my movement feels more fluid, “normal”, like… there’s no strapped in feeling keeping me from doing what I want to do (or making it difficult). And that feels really good.
I know I will never feel 100 percent again. And that’s alright. But I do feel like my body is mine again. I feel “normal”. I’m going to (fingers crossed) get my strength back. I feel…. free.