The thing that has brought me some comfort… is watching personal experiences (hooray youtube). Even getting to see some actual surgeries of BSO’s (bilateral salpingo-oophorectomy) and mastectomy/reconstructions. Of course mentioning it brings on a lot of “eww” and “WHY”. Heh. I guess because I can stomach it, and I want to know everything that is going to happen, or potentially could happen. It’s really helping with the mental preparation I’m doing.
I am starting to get a little nervous. And then I think about the second go round (top surgery) and I get REALLY nervous. Especially when I’m watching these women in so much pain, and all the help they need while healing… but I’m also seeing how much better these women feel about themselves when it’s all said and done. I’m sure they all had a pretty good idea of what they chose to put their bodies through to reduce the risk of cancer. They even seem… well… kind of proud of their scars. I think I will be too. I’m very much looking forward to getting all of this done and over.
Eight days and a wake up. (… and this isn’t even the big one). Ok. fine. yah I’m scared.
And as much as I like boobs? I am definitely not a fan of what the inside of one looks like. HEH.
You have every right to be scared and nervous. You wouldn’t be human if you didn’t. The thing is, the strength and love for your family (and some much needed rest lol) will get you through. I love and admire you so much ❤