A couple of days ago, I experienced my first hot flash. Nothing too intense, just really uncomfortable. Next day, later in the evening.. a few more. SO INTENSE that it sent the husband and friends grabbing everything they could find in our upstairs freezer. (Meh, we didn’t need that bag…
What am I in control of? The larger picture. Most likely not ever getting the big *C*. Though it’s been a painful choice so far, there are still zero regrets because *I* am in control of this choice. Acceptance has been the hard part for me. Remembering that I’m only…
Nobody told me that I could get another period. (Well, I guess the doctor told husband that since I was mid cycle, I would get one more and likely in a few days). Lo and behold! Shark week on top of healing weak? what the fuck. What the FUCK. I…
I mean, what else am I gonna do right now besides binge watch shows and crochet all day. Not being able to do what I normally do on a daily basis is kind of driving me nuts. (And at the same time, I know I should milk the crap out…
Tube and ovary removal were a success. They did end up finding endometriosis on my ovaries, and spots of something in my uterus. (All being tested). But it went well I hear. Waking up wasn’t terrible. I honestly thought I just dozed off for a bit before they started. I tell…
So, we’ve got about 24 hours before we leave for the hospital. I think we got this, De does not 🙂 I do have to say, she’s more concerned about how we’re all going to manage, and isn’t all that concerned about the fact that she is having surgery. The…
It is 3 days and a wake up, and it has hit me just how soon this first surgery is going to happen. How I have felt this past week with not being able to take a lot of my usual stuff, is nothing compared to how I feel right…
Something I am finding a hard time dealing with (aside from the obvious stress) is this whole “no vitamins/herbal supplements the week before”. UGH. I regularly take a B Complex along with my gabapentin to help with joint pain. It’s no magic fix, the the B does help some. You…
The thing that has brought me some comfort… is watching personal experiences (hooray youtube). Even getting to see some actual surgeries of BSO’s (bilateral salpingo-oophorectomy) and mastectomy/reconstructions. Of course mentioning it brings on a lot of “eww” and “WHY”. Heh. I guess because I can stomach it, and I want…
I still feel *ok*. I still feel like I am not scared of the actual surgery. (yet?) I am just not looking forward to being more or less forced to sit down/lay down. Anybody who knows me, knows I am up and down all day long. (Another story maybe for…